to all my prayer warriors...

Well hello again fellow bloggers.. I say that because I can't get over how many people that I don't know read my blogs and literally help me out and pray for me. Seriously you guys, your comments mean the world to me and I don't even know you. I am so astonished at the people that God leads to my blog to type out words of encouragement that will stay with me for a lifetime. It's just another way that God is proving Himself to me to be the faithful provider.

Anyways, back to my life haha.
I was in this devotional book that kept my interest for awhile, but it slowly started to just not be good for me. I stopped doing it altogether when I thankfully remembered some good advice from my Sunday school teacher.

"If you have a quiet time book that you lose interest in, get a new one that will keep your interest. It's okay if you don't finish a book, just KEEP spending time with God."

AWESOME advice, right?

Well it worked, because I got a new devotional book (The Message//Remix Solo) and I highly recommend it if you are in need of a new devo book. It really speaks to me and I can't believe how much closer to God I am already.

I'm really worried about my sister, so to my prayer warriors out there: send out a prayer for my big sister. Her name is Amanda and she's been through a lot of things, rough things and I just really worry about her. Also, pray that I will have the words to say that I won't be judgmental of the things she's doing, but loving. Always loving.

I know that this blog is already becoming extremely long for me, but there are some crazy things in my life that are about to happen. I have a lot of things going on that I thought I would share.

Well first of all, a talent scout is coming to hear me sing. Like a legit talent scout for a Christian recording studio!! He's so legit, he discovered Francessca Battistelli! He grew up at my church and he is friends with my mother and for some reason or another he's coming to hear me and I'm soooo excited! I've been writing some song lyrics for quite some time now and my good friend, Matt Taylor has been helping me put some music to my lyrics. We really only have one song done, but I really love it. I swear, too, that God totally wrote the song. It even spoke to me, so it's so strange because this all seems tangible. Like, it's not just a dream anymore, I might be able to share what God is doing in my life through music.

Thank you for praying. I am so blessed to have you guys come to my blog and pray for me. Keep it up :) I can definitely see that your prayers are being answered!!

OH! and if you have any prayer requests, lay them on me here and i PROMISE to pray for them :)

God Bless :)

the ugly truth (not that R-rated movie)

okay so i've been avoiding my blog and when i do write, it's completely shallow random stuff. like i'm trying to be all cutesy or whatever and gain people's approval. like am i still in highschool or something??

i've been avoiding something, or someONE lately.
none other than the all-powerful, all-loving God.

pretty dumb to avoid Him, isn't it?
yeah, i know.
just sometimes i can't help it.

it's like i'll get really close to God and then all of a sudden without a single warning, my brain and heart go into auto pilot and i don't feel anything anymore. i don't feel the need to spend time with friends, i don't feel the need to be nice to my family, i don't feel the need to be with just my boyfriend when there are other guys out there, and i don't feel the need to spend my life pleasing a God i've never physically seen.

wow. did i just write that?

i'm human, i guess.
i hate auto-pilot.

so if you read this blog, if you love Jesus... can you pray for me? i don't want to be in auto-pilot. i don't want to just go through life without really living it.

there. i was real again.
ugly, but real.

and the randomness continues

OOOh i haven't written on here in foreverr! well, life is moving rapidly past me and i'm trying so hard to catch up. i feel like i'm just kind of sitting back watching everything just happen around me. i can't feel it, can't stop it, can't be a part of it, i just watch it.

i'm a crazy writer. i love to write books and i really would like to finish a book one of these days, but i just can't seem to finish one.

i'm currently working on four books.
scatter brained? i think so!

My poor doggie is in the hospital :( she's sick.

I got my hair cut :) it looks really good; a lot more edgy. i got more/shorter layers and i also got shorter bangs again because i like it better that way. so that's good.

i also just read this verse and fell in love with it. God is so smart. you know, he just brings the right verse to you when you need it...

Ephesians 5:1-2
"Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that."

I know I'm random.. I like being random ;)

Goodnight!